Victory!

I've been pretty bad lately, but for the majority of the time I've been sticking to the diet. I haven't been exercising, which I rationalize by reminding myself that it's been the last two weeks of classes and I've been at the middle school full time... which, really, is strenuous by itself. But still, I know I can make time. It's only 30 minutes, right?
The last few weeks I've held steady at about 202.5. Disappointed that I wasn't losing any, but glad that I wasn't gaining. Still, really frustrating considering that most of the time, I am only eating 1500 calories, and many days that's been torture. I stopped weighing myself every morning, and as of today I hadn't weighed myself in a couple of days.
So that's why I was shocked this morning to step on the scale and see "198.6." I stepped off and recalibrated it. "198.6." Hmmm... I left, ate two eggs for breakfast (I got a double-yolked egg this morning for the first time in my life! A good omen, perhaps?), came back, and stepped back on. "199." I think I can officially say that at this moment, I weigh less than 200 lbs! That is the first major milestone for me! Woohoo!
I must add that now, the only pants that really fit me properly without needing help to stay up are two pairs that I could barely squeeze into two months ago. The rest of them (two of the pairs are purchases from this summer, that fit me quite well then) fall down without help. Yes!

Bah!

This morning: 202.0. I'm a couple pounds behind schedule, which aggravates me, but I'll get over it eventually. This past week has been super hard, but I'm back on track. Hopefully my shoulder will heal soon so I can pick back up on my exercise routine. Did I sabotage myself? It's a possibility.

I remember a conversation with my good friend Janeal when I very first started dating James. I told her all the cool things about him, and her response? "Don't sabotage this one, Audrey." I did. ...but I fixed it later! I hope I don't have to learn the sabotage lesson twice. :)

Avoidance

I haven't been posting because I'm feeling guilty.

Since last Tuesday, I haven't exercised one bit, and for two days I threw the diet out the window. I didn't go overboard, but I ate more than I usually do. One reason: I'm feeling a little under the weather, and my shoulder/back isn't better yet, and I'm under a huge level of stress. By Wednesday night most of that will be alleviated, but until then, gaaahhh!!!

So, I think I gained a pound back. Not so sure how I did that, maybe I'm retaining water or something. I don't think I've had more than 2200 calories on any single day, so maybe my metabolism has slowed way down? Who knows. I should be burning about that amount a day anyway. Frustration!